Jessica

09:57 am: Good times in the City
Name four bad habits you have:
1. biting my nails.
2. smoking
3. spending money badly.
4. losing shit when I am intoxicated.

Name four things that you wish you had:
1. courage
2. a brain
3. a heart
4. to go home.
Wizard of Oz was on to something.

Name four scents you love:
1. Movie Theaters
2. Book stores.
3. Eternity- Calvin Klein
4. sex.

Name four things you'd never wear:
1. Halter top.
2. short shorts.
3. heals.
4. lingerie

Name four things you are thinking about right now:
1. finding my wallet.
2. vacation.
3. Sabrina's Mom.
4. The extra 20 pounds I need to lose.

Name four things that you have done today:
1. Drove to work.
2. smoked a cigarette.
3. walked my dog.
4. read my e-mail.

Name the last four things you have bought:
1. tickets to spiderman 2.
2. cigarettes.
3. miller lite.
4. shorts at Kaufmann's

Name four people you would like to spend more time with:
1. Tit and Kate.
2. Joy.
3. Tara.
4. My dad.

Name four bands/groups most people don't know you like:
1. Journey.
2. Frank Sinatra.
3. Richard Marx.
4. ABBA.

Name four drinks you regularly drink:
1. water.
2. Diet Coke.
3. Miller Lite.
4. Smoothies.

Name the last four people you have kissed/been kissed by:
1. Carrie.
2. Dawn.
3. Kim.
4. Michelle.

Name four random facts about yourself:
1. I can only cross one eye.
2. I hate my feet and have only recently started wearing sandals.
3. I go to see movies I like 4 or 5 times in the theater.
4. I walk with my feet turned in slightly for some reason.

04:51 pm: Well It's Official---
Again I have decided to move back to Akron. The reasons are most certainly different but the outcome the same. August first I hope to be back in Akron living with my mother. Hopefully this time I live with her, I won't end up gaining weight. I am more sure about the decision this time than I was the last. Things happen for a reason I suppose. I am going to use this time to get back on my feet, pay my bills, and try to come out of the situation a little more mature. Dylan I am certain will enjoy having other dogs to play with at my Mom's house. I certainly will cut down on smoking (thank god) and all will be well. I hope. Have a good one all.

11:34 am: DSL sucks my nuts.
So I got a bill today from SBC. Apparently there was a 200.00 early termination fee on the DSL that my shitty computer wouldn't take. Just what I fucking need, another bill. This is getting a bit out of hand. I was fine until this bill. And by fine I mean, I can pay my electricity and gas bills along with rent and what not but I will be without nicotine for a short bit. It just seems to be getting worse and worse. Oh well that is life I suppose. It is things like this that make me look back at the last six months and wonder what the fuck has happened. I mean, it has been a rough six months. There have been a mild amount of "up's" but an insane amount of "down's". Wow. It is just astonishing to me how much bull shit can happen in such a short amount of time. Wow. What a Crock.

10:26 am:

movie list meme:
Bold what you've seen all the way through.
Italicize what you've seen part of.
Underline what you own.
and add three of your own.

01. Trainspotting
02. Shrek
03. M
04. Dogma
05. Strictly Ballroom
06. The Princess Bride
07. Love Actually
08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
09. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King

11. Reservoir Dogs
12. Desperado
13. Swordfish
14. Kill Bill Vol. 1
15. Donnie Darko
16. Spirited Away
17. Better Than Sex
18. Sleepy Hollow
19. Pirates of the Caribbean
20. The Eye
21. Requiem for a Dream
22. Dawn of the Dead
23. The Pillow Book
24. The Italian Job
25. Goonies
26. Baseketball
27. The Spice Girls Movie
28. Army of Darkness
29. The Color Purple
30. The Saftey of Objects
31. Can't Hardly Wait
32. Mystic Pizza
33. Finding Nemo
34. Monsters Inc.
35. Circle of Friends
36. Mary Poppins
37. The Bourne Identity
38. Forrest Gump
39. A Clockwork Orange
40. Kindergarten Cop
41. On The Line
42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding

43. Final Destination
44. Sorority Boys
45. Urban Legend
46. Cheaper by the Dozen
47. Fierce Creatures
48. Dude, Where's My Car
49. Ladyhawke
50. Ghostbusters
51. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
52. Back to the Future
53. An Affair To Remember
54. Somewhere In Time
55. North By Northwest
56. Moulin Rouge
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
58. The Wizard of Oz
59. Zoolander
60. A Walk to Remember
61. Chicago
62. Vanilla Sky
63. The Sweetest Thing
64. Don't Tell Mom the Babysitters Dead
65. The Nightmare Before Christmas
66. Chasing Amy
67. Edward Scissorhands
68. Adventures of Priscilla: Queen of the Desert
69. Muriel's Wedding
70. Croupier
71. Blade Runner
72. Cruel Intentions
73. Ocean's Eleven
74. Magnolia
75. Fight Club
76. Beauty and The Beast
77. Much Ado About Nothing
78. Dirty Dancing
79. Gladiator
80. Ever After
81. Braveheart
82. What Lies Beneath
83. Regarding Henry
84. The Dark Crystal
85. Star Wars
86. The Birds
87. Beaches
88. Cujo
89. Maid In Manhattan
90. Labyrinth
91. Thoroughly Modern Millie
92. His Girl Friday
93. Chocolat
94. Independence Day
95. Singing in the Rain
96. Big Fish
97. The Thomas Crown Affair
98. The Matrix .
99. Stargate
100. A Hard Day's Night
101. About A Boy
102. Jurassic Park.
103. Life of Brian
104. Dune.
105. Event Horizon
106. Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels
107. Dead Fire
108. The Never Ending Story

109. Resident Evil
110. Laura Croft: Tomb Raider
111. Pure Country
112. The Evil Dead
113. The Stand
114. Clue
115. My Best Friend's Wedding
116. A Perfect World
117. Star Trek: First Contact
118. Bring it On
119. Monty Python's The Holy Grail
120. Ginger Snaps

121. Alien

122. Girl, Interrupted

123. the secretary

124. empire records I used to own it…..

125. frailty

126. the truth about cats and dogs

127. clerks   

128. tango and cash

129. Pride and Prejudice

130. Bring it on

131. Sweet Home Alabama

12:21 pm: BODY ILLS + SKILLS
-do you bite your nails: sure do.
-can you roll your tongue: yep.
-can you blow smoke rings: no
-can you blow spit bubbles: no
-can you cross your eyes: i can only cross one after hitting my head a while back.
-do you make your bed daily: yes. when i sleep in it.
-what's sexiest on a guy: absence.
-what's sexiest on a girl: amazing eyes.
-do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: twirl
-do you cook: sometimes.

GROOMING
-how often do you brush your teeth: twice a day
-do you shower/bathe: shower.
-how long do these showers last: 15 minutes
-hair drying method: as of late, i am just letting the fro air dry.
-do you pee in the shower: nope.
-what color is your bedroom: white
-do you use an alarm clock: yes
-name four things or people you're obsessed with:dylan, cleaning, the food network, alan cumming.
-what kind of bed do you like: nice
-do you sleepwalk: i used to really bad, my dad used to have to lock me in my room.
-do you talk in your sleep: i have no idea
-how about the light on: not likely
-do you fall info-mercials, i end up having dreams about the amazing juice machine attacking me. not fun at all.
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
had sex: thursday
watched bambi: when i was about 7
cried: a month and a half ago.
talked on the phone: today
read a book: monday

MUSIC
is music important to you: sure.
do you sing: not in public.
what instruments do you play: used to play the violin
what do you think of Eminem: i think he kicks ass
in your opinion what band is the best of all time: JOURNEY

DO YOU LIKE
pop music: its fun to dance to.
punk music: it is entertaining.
rap music: not a huge fan, but it can be fun just like everything else.
hip-hop/RB: sure.
country: not a country fan.
jazz: abso-fucking-lutely.
classical: can be awesome at the right moment.
new age: not so much
hardcore: depends on my mood.
indie rock: i dunno. guess it just depends on what it is.
emo: not really.

DO YOU/ARE YOU
Could you live without the computer? nope.
What's your favorite fruit? apple
What hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? emotional, it lasts longer!

NUMBER
Of time your heart has been broke? what heart. hahaha
Of hearts you have broken? 1, maybe 2, i have no clue.
Of boys kissed? somewhere around 40 or so. hahaha. ima lip whore
of drugs taken illegally? i dunno. like 8.
Of tight friends? maybe 2.
Of scars on my body? too many to count. I scar from fucking mosquito bites.

OTHER THINGS
I know: nothing about chicks.
I want: to get my damn hair cut.
I have: no shame:)
I wish: that I never felt the need to wish again.
I hate: my period
I miss: my sanity
I fear: being a 40 year old scary, bitter lesbian, lonely and sad.
I often: nothing but the beating of my own heart.hahaha. sappy bullshit.lol.
I like: my tan. actually it is just a shit load of freckles i like to pretend is a tan.
I ache: always
I care: rarely.
I always: breath.
I dance: fast and stupid
I cry: after loss.
I write: constantly.
I confuse: past and present
I can usually be found: alone on my couch.

ARE YOU A...
Wuss: rarely.
Druggie: not anymore
Gang member: does blockbuster count as a gang?
Daydreamer: absolutely
Freak: in the bed.hahaha
Brat: sometimes
Goody-goody:not since the 2nd grade
Angel: never.
Devil: i have been called lucifer a time or two.
Friend: try to be
Shy: never
Adventurous: to a point.
Intelligent: not so much.

SELF ANALYSIS YOU PROBABLY DON'T WANT TO DO
Your best feature: my eyes.
Most annoying thing you do: talk.
Biggest mistake you've made thus far: who the hell knows. too many to count.
Describe your personality in one word:retarded
A smell that makes you smile: sharpened pencils.
A city you'd like to visit: london
A drink you order most often: diet coke.
The music you prefer while alone: classical.
A TV show you watch regularly: conan obrien.

10:03 am: Boy isn't that the truth.

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From Go-Quiz.com

10:54 pm: do it, or else.
post a memory you have of me in a comment.

then, of course, post this to your journal and see what people remember of you

05:00 pm: Good times.
I like your pants around your feet
I like the dirt that's on your knees
And I like the way you still say please
While you're looking up at me
You're like my favourite damn disease
And I love the places that we go
And I love the people that you know
And I love the way you can't say no
I like the freckles on your chest
And I like the way you like me best
And I like the way you're not impressed,
While you put me to the test

01:28 pm: fun fun fun
What comes to mind when you hear..
..snow?: white
..rain?: fuzzy hair
..tornado?: cool
..summer love?: haven't had it
Jon?: lenon
..Mike?: wanna be like
..Shea?:...
..banana?:clip
..dizzy?: falling down
..Laura?: exo
..Juan?: damn puerto rican
..car?: falling apart
..white?: paper
..peppermint?: patty
..New Found Glory?:lost
..placebo?: pill
..orange juice?: yuck
..candid camera?:hahahaha
..sister?: wish i had one
..brother?: strip clubs
..hate?: everyone
.school?: miss it
football?: good times
..rap?: syran
..pop?: off
..rock?: scissors paper
..punk?: punk punk bo bunk banana fana fo funk
..sex?: good times.
...death?:sucks ass
..baby?:little
..duuude?:swwweeettt
..the end?: took me by surprise.

07:37 pm: YUCK
So I made dinner tonight. Chicken salad (which is usually really good) I added bacon and onions to the mix. I thought it would be decent and then I took a few bites and thought I might gag. In fact I think I did a little bit. I was done and gave the rest to my dog. She seemed to like it. Well what can you expect from something that eats shit on the side of the road. But hey, it saves me from having to rinse the dishes. Yuck. Well I am not hungry anymore, that is a good thing. Now I am just nauseated. Win some lose some. It is basically the same thing anyway.
P.S. she is still licking the empty tupperware. Glad she liked it!!!!!

11:18 am: I HATE PEOPLE
I have pretty much spent the last week and a half on my couch. I wake up, I take a shower, I go to work, I come home, and I sit on the couch until I am ready for bed. I usually chill on the internet but only usually talk to Tara or the Jew. Although I have been minding my own business and making a specific point not to talk to certain people because they are drama queens that take pleasure in other peoples pain, I have still managed to have my name involved in mindless rumors that mean absolute shit. I hate it. Why is it exactly that people feel the need to involve themselves in stuff that has absolutely nothing to do with them. I am going home this weekend and had/have every intention of going home alone. I am driving up there to see my dad, my family, and settle some financial and school issues. Yet somehow it is being spread that I am going up there to hang out with the people I don't even want to talk to. Dammit, it never ends. I should just never leave my house I have decided. Though that even proves to be pointless since bullshit gets spread around anyway. Ya know I don't know what the problem is with just dealing with pain alone in my house with my dog, watching depressing movies and forensic TV like all normal people. Maybe it isnt so normal. But there are exactly two people voices I want to hear- My dad's and Lisa's, if it isn't one of them I could really care less. I wish I could just move to an island somewhere and not be bothered. Nothing but dylan, a lot of sunscreen, and low-carb foods to keep me company. Damn people suck. Not all people but I am finding that a lot of them just really fucking SUCK.

10:48 am: good times..... and a little depressing.
The X's are by the true statements. Copy and paste into your journal and add one more to the list.


( ) i've never been drunk
( ) i've never smoked pot
( ) i've never kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) i've never kissed a member of the same sex
( ) i've never crashed a friend's car
(x) i've never been to japan
( ) i've never ridden in a taxi
( ) i've never had anal sex
( ) i've never been in love
( ) i've never had sex
(x) i've never had sex in public
( ) i've never been dumped
( ) i've never shoplifted (edit;on purpose!!!!!)
( ) i've never been fired
( ) i've never been in a fist fight
(x) i've never had a threesome
(x) i've never snuck out of my parent's house
( ) i've never been tied up (sexually)
( ) i've never been caught masturbating
( ) i've never pissed on myself
( ) i've never had sex with a member of the same sex
( ) i've never been arrested
( ) i've never made out with a stranger
( ) i've never stole something from my job
(x) i've never celebrated new years in time square
(x) i've never went on a blind date
( ) i've never lied to a friend
( ) i never had a crush on a teacher
(x) i've never celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(x) i've never been to europe
( ) i've never skipped school
(x) i've never slept with a co-worker
( ) i've never cut myself on purpose
(x) i've never had sex at the office
(x) i've never been married
(x) i've never been divorced
(x) i've never had children
(x) i've never done heroin
(x) i've never shaved my head
(x) i've never been to a nudist event
(x) i've never been to Boston in the fall
(x) i've never used food as a sex toy
( ) i've never seen a dead person
( ) i've never been fisted and or have never fisted anyone
( ) I've never thrown up in a bar
( ) i've never been to a pro football game (CFL count??)
(x) i've never been paid for sex
(x) i've never paid for sex
(x) i've never been to a bathhouse
(x) i've never been on a hunting trip
(x) i've never performed and unassisted backflip
( ) i've never kept track of receipts of when I use my debit card
(x) i've never pity-fucked a friend
( ) i've never seen a good porn

01:00 pm: yippie.
______Your Life_______
[x] they call me - jess, jessy, baby's mama
[x] sex - female.
[x] my first breath of air - 08.10.81
[x] status – not single.
[x] occupation – a pathetic excuse for a secretary.
[x] best friends – dylan

_______Rewind_______
[x] most memorable memory? - eh who knows. probably the first time i figured out how to masturbate.
[x] worst? - i dunno. about a year ago
[x] first word uttered - no way.
[x] first best friend ever!? - michelle

_______Love?_______
[x] love is: fucking amazing
[x] first love: hehehehe. first last same thing.
[x] love or lust?: love.
[x] best love song: funny valentine
[x] when love hurts, you: write.
[x] true or false: all you need is love: true.
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: i think so

_______Opposite Sex_______
[x] turn ons: big tits- hahahaha just kidding. maybe. i dunno. intelligence, sense of humor, and a lot of tattoos.
[x] do your parent's opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: not really. their approval but it is neither desired nor required.
[x] what kinda hair style?: doesnt really matter. whatever looks good on them.
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: hold my hand in public.
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: i dont.
[x] are you the type of person to HOLLER and ask for numbers?: nope.

_______Picky Picky_______
[x] dog or cat: dog.
[x] short or long hair: depends.
[x] sunshine or rain: sunshine. as long as i have a good sunblock near.
[x] moon or sun: moon.
[x] hugs or kisses: kisses. definitely kisses.
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: i would prefer 1 best friend but i usually end up with 10 acquaintances
[x] summer or winter: fall. or spring
[x] written letters or e-mails: written. kick ass but the likelyhood of getting one are pretty slim.
[x] car or motorcycle: car.
[x] house party or club: house.
[x] sing or dance: dance
[x] freak or slow dance: freak.

_______Lately_______
[x] how are you today? ok. dirty. in need of a shower.
[x] what pants are you wearing right now? jeans.
[x] what shirt are you wearing right now?grey t-shirt and zip up torn blue thing.
[x] what does your hair look like at the moment? messy. and dirty.
[x] what song are u listening to right now? none.
[x] how is the weather right now? cloudy and chilly.
[x] last person you talked to on the phone? sabrina
[x] last dream you can remember? dude last night i had a crazy dream with some scary peeps in it. but i can remember what happened other than i was freaking out because i couldnt find my cell phone.
[x] who are you talking to right now? lisa.
[x] what time is it? 1:11pm

_______More About YOU!_______
[x] what are the last four digits of your phone number? 8157
[x] if u were a crayon, what color would you be? blue.
[x] have you ever almost died? i dont think so.
[x] do u like the person that sent u this? actually i stole it off her journal. but yea i like her. she is cool.
[x] what's the next CD you are going to buy? i dunno.its been a while since i bought a cd.
[x] what's the best advice ever given to you? jump:)jk.
[x] have u ever won any special award? i won an art award in highschool and a writing award in college.
[x] what's the stupidest thing u have ever done? i cut my hair in the 6th grade. it was bad. just bad.
[x] how many kids do you want to have? 2
[x] shampoo? i dunno. whatever is cheap, doesnt make my color bleed and smells real nice.
[x] what are you most scared of? looking like the mother from "what's eating gilbert grape" or being one of those people that have to be cut out of there house.
[x] how many TV's do you have in your house? 1 that we are using.
[x] do you have your own TV? yes.
[x] have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone? yep my left arm, twice.
[x] who do you dream about? bullshit.
[x] who do you tell your dreams to? dylan or lisa
[x] who's the loudest friend you have? i dunno. ed maybe.
[x] who's the quietest friend? kim.
[x] Is cheerleading a sport? sure
[x] how many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop? 314.5

09:44 am:

What will your Funeral be like? by rashock
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You will die by:	Mysterious unsolved murder. The killer was never found and neither was your body. Your casket is empty and you family mourns till this day in hopes that you are still alive or died a swift death.
Death Date:	October 13, 2063
Number attending your funeral?	64
How much will you leave to friends and family?	$3,893,384
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01:03 pm: ode to something lost
Your love in all it's finery
Tear up the darkness all around me
Until I can breathe again
Until I believe again

Cause I'm a train wreck
Waiting to happen
Waiting for someone to come pick me up off the tracks
A wild fire born of frustration
Born of a world, oh, that gets me so high
I've no fear at all

But your eyes like midnight fireflies
Light up the trenches where our loves lies
Until I can see again
Find my way back again

Cause I'm a train wreck
Waiting to happen
Waiting for someone to come pick me up off the tracks
A wild fire born of frustration
Born of a world, oh, that gets me so high

I've no fear at all
To fall so deep into you
Loose myself completely
In your sweet embrace
All my pain's erased

And your mouth, it's all that I wish
Mercy of your lips, just one kiss
Until I can breathe again
Until I can sing again

Cause I'm a train wreck
Waiting to happen
Waiting for someone to come pick me up off the tracks
A wild fire born of frustration
Born of a world, oh, that gets me so high

I've no fear at all
To fall so deep into you
Loose myself completely
In your sweet embrace
All my pain's erased

08:36 pm: Hippie Musak Yea.
So I have decided that there is nothing better than doing dishes with the slight hint of organ music in the back ground. Apparently the hippies next door have discovered the wonders and soothing amazement that goes on with some well planned organ music. I am amazed daily by the stupidity of others. If I am lucky however, I can get a contact high off the pipe smoking going on outside our kitchen window. I will keep trying.

01:19 am: A Couple Things
First: I am watching a special on TLC about mummies. Well these specialists are talking about the ingenuity of the old Greenland people. They found two families mummified by the cold weather and they said these people were very smart because they were utilizing animal skinned clothes. They went on to say that this is an example of the ingenuity of these people. Well they didnt do the greatest job since they still managed to freeze to death.
Second: Carl is gone nah nah nah nah nah nah. yea we can call the Poe-Poe's anytime his mullet wearing ass steps foot on the property.
Third: I lost 6 pounds. ugh it was an accident but its gone either way.
Fourth: My puppy is getting x-rays tomorrow to see how many little pups are being housed in her tummy. I am excited. I hope she is ok giving birth since she is so young.
Fifth: I had a dream about one of my mom's scuzzy ex's (Denny). I used to think he looked like Phil Collins, however in my dream he more resembled Jerry Garcia. Denny is gross. And in my dream he was super FAT and gross. Really bad combo.
AAAAAHHHHHH the things that amuse. I am a happy camper.
Peace

08:36 pm: Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine _ You look so beautiful tonight
Remind me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
I'm in your reach
You held me in your hands
But could you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces

03:24 pm: yippie skippy im gonna be makin pizza. this should be good. My finances arent looking too pretty so i got a second job. this is fabulous. so i just got im from someone i dont know. as it turns out it was one of ed's "friends" he met online. love it. love it. i smell a booty call in the air. im tired. im hungry and im bleeding. ick ick ick. peace

04:12 pm: Damn Damn Damn
So this one time I woke up in a fairly good mood and although I am still in a fairly good mood, I am at a point where I'm not sure which emotion to run with. My options are being upset, angry or just plain amused. Right now I am feeling the amused one. I have been informed of a certain live journal post which has flat out made me burst out laughing. Kate has decided to take it upon herself to be the "bouncer" of tiffany's life. I find it quite amusing because I have a feeling that her post was supposed to be intimidating or if nothing else get money out of me which I think is a big fucking joke. I have actually thought about writing a check for the money owed however, every time I put the pen on a blank check I am reminded of the extra 90 bucks I have to add to my rent because of their little road trip to mexican infested texas. Two other things amuse me. 1. the thought of Joy taking boxes and furniture out to the curb for the horrid garbage men to take away. Joy+ Carrying things = funny shit. 2. is the fact that no matter where they move they still think they are the center of the universe. Nevermind the fact that everyone here has stresses of their own. Nevermind that we have all had relationships, jobs, and at least ten pounds on my ass to worry about. Nevermind those silly things lets drop everything and worry about the fact that tiffany didnt have a job yet. How about the stresses of another friend up there in Chi-town. We all have issues and shit going on with our lives but once again lets focus on Tiffany and Kate and the surviving and wonderful "life building" they are attempting to do. And if these wonderful posts are supposed to do anything other than make me laugh out loud--then they didnt succeed. I am definitely not loosing any sleep over the fact they think i am stuck up. what else is new. Peace